eye contact has avoided me since you

hair, hands, bare skin, lips

i stare

over a right shoulder

that flurry aura over a left

fuzzy city streets

elbow patches

faded flannel

old sunglasses

the soft glow of rain on cobblestone

illuminated by street lights

not from lack of trying

my eyelids heavy from wine

and lack of sleep

or emotional encumbrance

no one welcome in my bed

i can't look as deep into

soul searching

life connecting

earth shattering

intimate raw

eyes

not since you